Lord, if only you could give me this one chance...

I'd take it. :)

and the rest would be history... 

Brevior saltare cum deformibus mulieribus est vito. Life is too short to dance with ugly men. 

Wrong side of the bed.

I think I woke up at the wrong side of the bed today coz the first thing I thought of was how I wanted to hate someone so badly.  And it didn't feel good. Not at all.  It just reminded me more of the hurts.

I'd like to think I'm more than okay now. Honestly, it's a bit traumatizing and thus it seems a bit hard for me to think that I could actually give my 100% to that someone I've recently met or I am bound to meet soon.

Never really thought that someone could drain out the best in me and have no sense of remorse. Actually, it's surprising to see that there's even no sense of social ethics. If only the world could allow someone to teleport...

It's Wednesday but I'm hoping to teleport myself to the long weekend. Beach/House Party would be a good place to start.  And hopefully no more waking up at the wrong side of the bed. It's such a nightmare.

Blacklisted.

whatever i said before still stands. Lord, i may have forgiven but i will never forget.


my real friends know that i'm not the type who gets angry easily. true. i feel that it's a waste of energy to feel angry at a person for the longest time.  however, one thing i've learned (and i learned this the hard way) is that when you don't get angry, people just take you for granted and they take advantage of you.


so here i am, declaring that you've been cruel.  you were very good at turning the tables on me.  you never even had the balls to defend me when a lot of stories went around. and now you want us to be friends? that's crap.


if you really want us to be friends, i wish that i don't get to see you anymore. make yourself invisible. go the other way if you must. leave if you could. just maybe, i'll be able to forget. for now, you're definitely still blacklisted.

World gone crazy?

Has the world gone crazy or have I been living in a different side of it for the longest time?

I feel that a  lot of people seem to have lost their ground and have strayed far from where the road is.  It's not to say that I haven't done crazy stuff, thought of weird things,and been put in awkward situations. But I would like to think that I haven't reached the point that I had to compromise what I truly believe in.

Yes, I've had a lot of mistakes and in fact I think I'm still in the process of overcoming them... easy and slow.. but I'm getting there.. Almost.

And then comes the crazy stuff again.. confusing you on your way to the right path.  It's like when you feel you're going through a straight road already and then you find yourself in another crossroad. Then you get lost all over again. It becomes a vicious cycle, if you let it go on that way. 

But when we strive to be better, then things get easier and we find our way back... and all the good things come in small and big packages, wrapped in silver and gold trimmings.

So yes, even if it's a crazy world out there with different people, different values, different beliefs, we all have to stick to what is RIGHT. Not just what we think is right... but what is truly in our hearts.

Crossing out stuff from my Christmas wish list and Bucket list!

Realized that I only have 3 items left from my Christmas List which I haven't gotten...

1.  External Hard Drive -- I will definitely get one soon -- once I probably settle in my new place. Yes, I'm moving out from my Makati condo and will be based in Eastwood soon! I actually still have a lot of things to take care of -- light fixtures, parking, furnitures, movers.  Yikes!!! And to think I haven't actually started canvassing stuff. Oh, I think I could do with my sofa bed for the mean time, if worse comes to worst! hahaha!!!
2.  Starbucks Tumbler- I actually have one already but haven't had the chance to get it from the 16th floor pantry.  As much as possible, I really don't want to go there -- yes, for very obvious reasons. Again, another big Hahahahha there! :D Oh, who needs a tumbler anyway?
3.  Ring -  I will be getting diamond studs instead! Woot, woot!  I can't wait!! :)

As for my Bucket list, I've crossed out the girly joint.  Totally one for the books! Never again! It's actually just like Patpong but different in a way that it's closer to home (umm, literally).  Ok, enough!  I've spilled enough info for everyone to have a graphic image of what's in there. Hihihi. Anyway, I'm still working on my passing out experience. Umm.... still looking for the right kind of company when I do this. The closest experience I've had would be the one in Galera back in College... it's been ages ago, so I want to have another one of those again! Ok, ummm... readying my aspirin for this! Teehee.

So there's still a lot I want to do and I'm looking forward to more adventures this year.  Things are definitely looking great!!

Anyway, (off topic) summer's about to end so I hope to have a one last hurrah to the beach this year! Friends, let's goooo!!!! :)

Great leap for 2011.

I've wasted enough time coz I was stubborn not to heed to the advices of good friends.

Last weekend marks a new beginning as I finally decided to take on a different path.  It takes a lot of courage and self will to drift away from something that you've always been comfortable with.  It requires even much more than this to admit that I was just plain stupid.

But at the end of the day, it's nice to know that for every end comes a new beginning. There's always that glint of hope that everything will be fine from now on.  As long as God knows I made things right, then I shouldn't worry.  

For whatever it's worth, I learned more about who I am and I'm making amends to myself.  For those who have yet to learn from all of it, I only wish you all well.  

I just know that 2011 will be a great year for me and I'm waiting in hopeful anticipation. :) 

I badly want this Journal for Christmas!